If I’ve learned anything from listening to hours upon hours of Jaden Smith’s Podcast Business Of Hype, it’s that only YOU can build yourself up, and only YOU can tear yourself down. I simply refuse to tear myself down. As Jaden says, the meaning of life is not despair and anxiety, it is learning to love yourself more and more each day.
I have learned to love myself and forgive my spirit for all of my faults. Yes, I can be a little angry when I get hungry. Yes, at times I am not the most understanding partner. Yes, I hit a guy with my car today, let his body roll off the windshield, and fled the scene. The only thing I can do is give myself the space to understand my behavior and work through things in my past that led up to this.
It truly does not involve the man that I hit with my car today. He is on his own journey. Lifting my emotional baggage is the real work here.
Jaden recently had an episode that explored forgiveness. I knew that if I was ever going to forgive this man for getting in the way of my car, I was going to have to forgive myself.
For self-forgiveness to be completely effective I had to remember that treating myself with kindness and compassion was the most important thing. I accepted the situation that happened. I didn’t beat myself up for being on my phone while driving. I got some Carvel, as a little reward.
I forgave myself for being unaware that my car had hopped a curve. I am healing from the fact that I hit a man with my car. I do not regret finding the courage to drive away after I realized I hit the man with my car. I am proud of myself for thinking about if that man is in critical condition at the hospital. I am proud of myself for taking a grief counseling course at ITT Tech so I can help guide the family in their mourning process if he happens to die.
Thanks to healing work from Jaden Smith’s podcast I am able to put one foot in front of the other and put the pedal to the metal. That is what heroes do, and I am my hero.